We have only had this little guy for about 2 1/2 months but it feels more like 6 months. Not because it has been rough, but because it is hard to remember life without him. He is a part of us now and we all fit well together. Alea is so great with him and he with her (minus the hair pulling on his part). I knew that I would probably love all the children that came into our home but it is different to love someone compared to completely falling in love with someone. I have completely fallen in love with baby E. The other day as I was loving on E and telling him that I loved him I saw on his face that he felt the same way. That almost knocked me over. I training they talk about loving on the kids that come into our homes but it almost like a lift the lid and pour in the love type way of thinking. I knew I would love, or at least try to love, all the kids in our home but I knew that many of them would not love me back. It never really occurred to me that one of them would love us back the way that this baby does. I knew pretty early on that I was going to get my heart broken by this baby leaving us one day, but at least I know that is going to happen and can tell myself I am preparing for it (although how can you really prepare yourself for loss). Knowing that this baby loves us too and that he can't prepare for the loss of us breaks my heart right now.
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